it's been long since I've been writing. I have completely
shut myself from opening up into poetry and updates my vent like a petty drama
female in facebook. Planning to completely deactivate my account. Become me
once again like I was before. I have been doing nothing but wasting my time
sleeping and playing online games. I have put all my insecurities at bay by
forgetting it while wasting the year. I have wasted enough so I must wake up. I
have shunned everything important . It's not anyone's fault. It's me that I
have to cope up with. It took time ( wasted ) for me to understand my
weakness. The thing is that I don't want to compromise in anything so people
might take it as being selfish (like my big sister explained). Moreover I keep getting ill and my health issues are
taking toll on me. And these sickness are minor cold and fever but very
frequently. My immune system is so weak . I cannot stay without my tissue box anywhere I go. I sneeze like a
monster grunting and everyone laughs at it. So I decided to take all sorts of
vitamins prescribe to me and do some stretching. So from now on I have to work on both my
professional life , my health as well as for my future studies. I do wish my life was a bit easier.
Apart from these misery, I have to work on my illustrations
for the next year comic con. Me and my friend decided to open a booth .
Hopefully we get a chance to cosplay too.
I have very little time to complete these task and I hope I
can finish almost all the things important.
Right now listening to phoenix songs and youtopia by Armin
ft. Adam young.
Funny how I ends up like this again. It hurts but well I think I'm getting better.
