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Saturday, November 17, 2012

deep love

I never thought my tears could roll out so easily.
When I thought I couldn't cry...
When i had no hope for future....
when adults lives are filled with filth and pure ugliness...
I still have to figure out my existence.
It is so blank..
But i still live on and kept on going....
And it is because the lessons that  i learn, books that i read and people I observe made me learn the good and bad and the choices we can choose.
They fill my blankness in a good way and in a bad way. I stumble but I try to get back up again and again.
Is it worth it...?
When i thought i have no heart...what does this excruciating pain in my chest...?
I'm tired of being multifaceted character who fools herself the most..
When i don't appreciate myself why do i live on?
I found an answer...People out there. I mean some people out there decided to work hard to protect someone they feel they must with all there heart no matter what...It changes them like they change the one they protect. And in return the Universe conspires to help them and spread on to reach out to individual such as me....That's Why I keep on hoping...   hoping..